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Saturday, July 31, 2010

My Heart Behind Support Raising

When I was contemplating what I wanted to do after I graduated I of course thought of Campus Crusade for Christ. I have been involved with them since my freshman year and have had some amazing opportunities through this organization. But something BIG was holding me back. I knew I didn’t want to raise support to work with them for a year. This was different than raising support for a short term mission trip like I had done twice before, this was going to be way out of my comfort zone. So I applied for several other options similar to Global Aid Network but nothing seemed to match my heart for what I wanted to do for the next year. There are so many amazing opportunities out there but the Lord kept bringing me back to interning with GAiN. So I realized that if raising support was the only thing that was holding me back from this internship then there really wasn’t anything holding me back.

Since deciding to intern with GAiN the Lord has changed my heart about support raising. I have realized that it isn’t just a means to an end, but part of what God is trying to teach me through this internship. It is like the first step in the process. Sometimes I find myself putting confidence in my own abilities to do ministry, I think that my past experiences in East Asia or Santa Cruz will carry me through. But throughout this process the Lord has taught me that He is the only one I can depend on. When I come to the end of my rope, He is there waiting for me to trust Him with my life (like I should have done in the first place!).

The verse that I am claiming throughout this whole process is this one:

Hebrews 12:1 “1Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. 2Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.”

I want to fix my eyes on Jesus, the one who has called me and is faithful!

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